Thank You!

I was so happy to have another shoulder other than the shoulders I already have. That is what this man is to me but above all, I have learned to love him more than I could imagine. It hurts me when stuffs like this happened. Insults! I hate it specially when its comes from him. Maybe I just don't want to hear it from the man I love. It's like embracing a love of pain. I was always thankful for the love he has for me and really thankful for every inch of help he gives me when I need him or when I cant really move for having nothing. I was always thankful and is always thankful for that but just when I have known those words from him...I was really disappointed. I'm happy for all the help he is giving but I never really forced him to give help. I borrow and I pay. If there's nothing to be borrowed then he could refuse. I mean, I don't want to just hear it at the end that there was actually a problem on that. I know that this person was really good...he shares a lot of what he had. A lot of people was thankful to that including me but I believe that Im the only person he had talked about this matter.I know it was not of his intention to insult me but I just felt that way. I never intended to be somebody's burden into their lives. I am always thankful for these kind of people who is always willing to help. Specially because this person is simply special to me. But I never expected this would happen. From now on, I will consider him as my last option on helping me to survive. I never forced him and I will never make him do it because of sympathy. Never again now that I knew what he felt and think about it.