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Never had said I'm gonna lose the feeling but I lose him. I don't know why and don't know that it was going to happen. We'd never been together for long so I would not say I'm in love with him. I have my man and I still respect that matter. This other guy is just new, vague and easy. In behalf he's damn childish. I understand that he may act like that but he is supposed to be understanding the life around him. He would have just do good things to the one he cares but never really to those who are just around him. I know that he is trying to go back to the good man he is(i know he has a good side though). I just want to let go and give him up. There is this girl who's also close to me and really very sweet and good. I'm happy that she may be the one. I would be a lot happier if this guy would change because of her. I'm aching and it makes me want to drop a tear. I felt crying in front of him. "Whoever she is, that may not be me but just go back to the good person i felt you are." How I wish I could be the one but I think I will never be. He is starting to drop his passion to maybe win this girl. I'm happy that he is changing for somehow inspired with the presence of a girl, my friend i may say. I'm just hoping that his glow would cure my letting go. I don't know why I have the highest hope on him. I can't even explain why every time I get mad at him, there is always something pulling me back on staying with him and understanding his vague side. I'm a friend to him now and I'm supposed to be acting that way. Sometimes, it makes me want to run away. I want to see him happy but with another girl, one of the closest, it would make me bleed. As what I'm saying, I hope he could be happy with me and change for good as well. But now I guess its not my way to do it. I have to smile for them and I have to cry when they turn their back on me and laugh for being together. I want to accept that we are over whatever it is that we have or I have for him. I guess I would just keep on singing in my mind...the song I keep on listening right now. I asked him to sing for me and this song that keeps on playing now reminds me of his smile, his laugh and his smell...don't make any "Trouble" now...