Very Bad Trip Day!
I often have the thoughts of being away from a lot of things, persons and emotions. I just don't know why or where did this very bad feelings started. The day started so calm. Its not a very happy nor a bad day when i got in school. Smile and laughs with friends. Jokes with special people. Students screaming for joy all around the campus. It was a fair day. Except that everything happend so fast.
It started when i felt that my period is coming. I am very assuming about it. Plus, when i was trying to contact somebody, he replies totally slow. Worst, he never really replied. I seek for answers but i just got disappointment. I didn't bother to seek for deeper reasons because initially, its killing me. For quite sometime, i've been living with my own instinct that someone is still there for me. I always thought that there was that somebody to care for me and will always take care of me even if it will never be us. Friends could also care for each other right? Finally, today, the truth prevailed. I was NOTHING!..and now totally gone in somebody's heart. I was in full bad trip meeting my special someone. just when we were about to eat, i confirmed that its really my period. We ask the jobee staff to pack the food and bring the food in the house. I was blamed by that person with me for not being ready. For the s*** sake! Should he blame me for that innate reason? And so my day totally messed up by everything. I got home to take a bath. I'm not that relieved after doing that stuff, but at least, I can still breathe.
