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2009-06-26T00:56:00.001-07:00

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2009-06-08T17:58:00.000-07:00

This is logically a notice that if you notice, I have to hide something I have posted. Well, that is a notice for the "The who?!"..not to mention who..

This is not for anybody but of my significant other. I don't want him to be in pain. Just that! Happy! Happy! No worries..whatever! God will save the day! :-)

"Good morning jokers"..as what Jo's(opism8) line is. heheheh!

Oh well, a bla bla notice. lol. ;-p

Breathe

2009-04-20T20:55:00.000-07:00

The noisy world, the teaching and the widest web of the world that I left behind pressures me a lot. I chose to jump with a new one..a new line and a new life. This is the real life I have to get in but it seems so hard to push through. I'm loving it but I get scared a lot..many times. I felt so threatend that I might get lost or loose something I can't take hold again. I'm taking a very slow land quiet step that I don't want anybody to notice me like somebody is sleeping dearly and I don't want that person to wake up. Don't get mad at me! Don't stare at me like that! I can't stand it when everybody is looking at me and I'm just standing..crying inside. I want to run. I want to sleep like Im never ever gonna wake up. Really confusing feeling. I felt like suffocated with the full breeze. There's too much but I can't handle it. I look like really hardened and fearless but I don't really know how and where to start another step again. Im on the middle of the way but it is getting even heavier for me to climb. I feel like quitting from the battle but I dont have a choice. Its now or i guess never. Im not sure though. Where will I go? What will happen to me if I quit? The light is better and a lot better than before. If I throw this, i might not find another like this. Its so scary. Im totally squished! I need help..I need peace of mind and soul. I want to find the right room to live.

Just A Lil Peace of Heart

2009-03-15T11:42:00.000-07:00

Almost 4yrs now. Im happy that after everything we've been through, we always go back to each other. So many breaks-up but still we are together. I have done a very bad lie and he accepted me back. I started to change myself and go back to the person who loves him so much. He has given me a chance that was full of regrets. I just knew about it now and its all because of trust. I wasn't this bad before. His being so insensitive for almost 2yrs made me like this. Bad thing when it follows more and more of the same situation. Now that Im trying ot be good, I can't even feel my right. I feel like when I am in doubt, I don't have the right to ask because he is making me feel that I have done a very very bad thing that he would compare to whatever bad thing that I could think about him. Until now, I still have this very painful heart that he used to make me feel when we were still starting our years, though not that frequent like before. I can't have a brave heart like forever. I loose strength and its getting even bad when I think about how I tried to make the other two issues about us. Even if it takes my pride away and I put shame on myself just to make things even just a little better. I'm trying to make my own step(never mind to those who don't deserve any respect!). I get tired and it makes me think to have a lil rest. Away from all these stupid things in mind.

Moving on

2009-03-01T22:44:00.000-08:00

Up for my 6th day. Work time isn't bad and working place, atmosphere and mates ain't bad. I love the learning but I have to learn alone. I'm keeping my mind very busy so literally, I am moving on from something in the past. Well, i felt a lot better these past few days about that except on hurrying myself on learning a lot more than I could imagine for the new job. So I have this new programming language and database packed in my mind plus a new programming interface learning and installing everything i needed on ubuntu terminal. Very nosebleed! The good thing is I learned getting closer with Mr. and Mrs. Google Yahoo. I learned to read a lot and still I have a lot of questions. Nyahaha! I am making the time of my life on having new knowledge to store in mind. Its a lot better than getting busy with the habbit that I have before. Very very bad habit. "Have fun and never get tired" is the motto. heheh. :-)

Reality

2009-02-22T21:42:00.000-08:00

I have been bothered and anxious at the same time. I was given up by the person whom I decided to risk the standards or I may say what is ideal on my own mind. It was certainly the first time I decided to give up whatever what ideal is to me to the person who has nothing but pride. I guess pride cannot feed you right?! Well, call me dumb but I did it. I accepted the almost downs that i consider he have. Just when I did, he run away, get scared of the responsibility of the beginning to be serious dou relationship. I am still blessed after all because somebody came back to rescue my misery. I was very thankful that after all he still accepted me back and I call my greatest intelligence to knock me off and tell me to stop the illness that I am doing. But then I wasn't that happy. I have questions in mind and I have more words left to say to the person who left me. I tried to work things back but he refused it. I tried to speak out but he just got to say yes and not doing it so. I miss everything and it almost killed me knowing that he walked away because he was tired of me, for a month, and not just because its getting so hard for him to accept that we are together but i can't get over still with the past. Maybe he was just so coward or shameful to see me in person so I decided to converse with him in sms to clear things up so I can end everything and move on without any regrets why I did not do such things. So I got all the answers that I needed and I had better feeling when I woke up today cause we had that conversation last night and I finally decided to end up bothering him and his "happy" life as what he said. Well, gotta grow and leave things cleared as what I told him. I never really stop when I am hanging and uncleared. Reality hurts but indeed sets me free. Still hard now but I am trying to get busy. Luck for me! ;-)

Illegally Done

2009-02-18T18:37:00.000-08:00

Suspect?? Of course not! Thank God I'm not. We started last night around 10PM until its almost 1AM. I am very proud to say that I illegally stripped down nervousness, have taken off my fear and I strongly and cautiously take my first step..my very first time to take a wheel. I felt very excited and very happy the first time I had turn on the engine, change the gear, "clutch and break", engage gas and make it finally moving. I can make a turn though not that good. My first practice isn't that bad after all. We almost fell to Roxas canal, bump into the garbage containers..as in big containers and almost hit 3 persons of different places. My teacher who is my co-teacher even get nervous and instead of turning off the engine when I lose the break he got lost as well. Good thing the last minute when we were about to fall, I stepped on the break. Wahahah! That was scary. Here's these 2 guys sitting beside the road when I was so busy controlling the gas, stepping the clutch and changing the gear when I did not notice I was too much on the side. I almost hit them. They really jumped! Oooppss! Sorry! At least I did not kill them. But they were shouting at me. When we cross the first bigger crossing I almost hit another man so instead of hitting him we went all through the canal and almost fell if i haven't manage to step on the break. We were laughing a lot after all. The 1st challenge was to turn that "thing"(i don't now how to call it coz its not a car). I can't control the gas very well so we make the road busy coz my teacher have to turn off the engine before we crash the garbage containers. So we were on the road and makin'it heavy for all the drivers. The second and the third time I made a turn, it was successful and i can even park. Weeee! The most challenging thing was when we were on the real busy road. It is not even busy compared when its morning and traffic light is there. It was pretty late so no traffic light and lesser cars but still its too many for me. The engine stopped like for 5 times and a lot were waiting at our back. I am so pressured to make the engine running again. It was hard. From Roxas to Matina I was driving and we dropped by the gasoline station at Ecoland Caltex before reaching Matina. I made it! I am so having fun! We are using the manual mode as what they call it and I know how to change gear upto the 4th gear. The hardest thing maybe is to go backwards. Haven't tried that. Its my next step maybe. Im so excited for it but there is still a lot to practice. Multi-tasking, keeping on the lane, looking on the mirrors, changing gear while driving, not forgetting the clutch before break or changing gear and controlling the gas..very important. Well, not too bad for a first timer and my teacher said, I ain't that hard to teach. Together with this I am planning to just have fun and forget about something..my emotions. Maybe diverting my strong feelings to something into another something will make me forget whatever it is. Have fun now!..I am happy but it makes me sad..:-(

The pain..I surrender

2009-02-11T03:57:00.000-08:00

Love Snap

You gave me up when I was about to keep you
Makin' me deem the off beem grounds why you have to leave
Thinking you were coward to face me
You are just egocentric and kept yourself gratis.

I was timid when I had you
You were no good thing for me by all means
I never gave up your juvenile side and lunacy
Changing yourself to amaze me, just a facade of you.

The circle around you and the faith weighs a lot to me
Fence and light in you shelter are indeed great
This time everything around you is admirable to have
Coward, fraud, foolish, egocentric...Now the hitch was you.

I can't believe the moments we had Isn't genuine
Can't think how you fake to show strong feelings
I was giving in seeing you change to make us better
For just a second with the wind you abscond.

I might miss you but miserably I had to get enough of this
I can't let this passion ruin down on my blood
You do not merit to have what I have for you
Wasted everything and I now I have to yield.

Vampire's Love

2008-11-30T07:05:00.000-08:00

"I will do everything to protect you..."

"Your scent is like a drug to me..."

Vampires doesn't sleep, the color of their eyes changes, they were believed to be bad...the cold ones who eats meat..humans! "Twilight" is a movie that explains about love with two creatures totally different from each other. One with warm blood and the other one with the cold hands. If vampires were real and if they are all vegetarian like Edward Cullen's family, I will probably be inlove with them. Human is my kind but we even hurt each other, we give pain, we lie and we leave. We have good sides if we are truly inlove. I see the bad, the worst and the negative side but there is always sunshine after the rain.(lol) The story that started from a book, read by a few, now became an inspiration. A story of an impossible love that touches one's heart. There were a lot of reactions after watching the movie. Its indeed a simple movie yet I love the concept of it. Have your own eyes witness the movie and have the reaction of your own..

D's Day!

2008-10-25T12:56:00.000-07:00

Its my Hon's bday yesterday and I fell asleep so I just made this blog early morning of the 26th. Its my rest day but still, I woke up 'd same time i usually wake up when I have work, 3:40am. I looked for food first but just a small piece of cake was left for me. Its 4:07am and now I'm writing. I was really happy that he love 'd gifts i gave him. I really don't have any idea what to give him. So I end up walking at the mall not knowing exactly what to buy.

Well, that's it. A shirt and a frame with our pix on it. He placed the frame on his working table and he wore the shirt and still wearing it right now. They haven't had rest 'cause they've been drinking the whole time.

Other than that, i bought him a cake with greetings on it. I held the cake when he blew the candle. He is really getting old but hopin' that he's maturity won't be hard for me to deal with. There were really a lot of people here in the hauz. Its like a reunion to all of his long time friends.
Mmmmm..I just had a break. We went to convinience to buy something to drink and just a 'lil thing to eat. So back to mah position. Am getting sleepy but I have a lot of stuffs to do. Including the grades. So its D's day and he's 9 years older than me. I'm happy to have him and I'm happy that he reach his age. And one last thing, that is the card on mah gift. Well, there's a lot of things to say. I just wish him a good life and health as well but the detailed message..its ours to keep. I love you D and Happy boitday dear!

Term of the Month Celeb

2008-10-20T03:55:00.000-07:00

Its a special day today but I don't usually write during this kind of days. In the Philippines, its October 20, 2008 and this day is indeed special. Its the 3rd Year and 1st month of my relationship with my..mmm..not sweet(nyahahah!) yet responsible boyfriend. This day is a real funny day. We were out early this morning so after work,i went to his hauz. He was still sleeping as usual and its 10:30am. We are both nocturnal actually. So i just did my OL works before going to rest as well. When I was about to rest, he's getting up and starting his day then. Its not a good thing though after him losing our pinky ring, again for the 3rd time. Well, its not what the blog is all about. Its about a term that his nephew "Derek" used. Very funny line! "Utot sa Baba!" Wahahaha! I was craving for food today. Just scrambled egg and pancit canton. I really miss foods cooked at home. Its really different than just eating on fastfoods or food chains. So me and my hon cooked at their house and his nephew "Derek", niece "Xanthe", younger bro "Lyndon" and a companion in 'd hauz "My2" ate together on the table. Then here comes Derek saying "Utot sa baba" in Visayan language. You might not have any idea of this specially for those who don't understand Visayan. We really laugh at it! Have any idea?! Well, if we have fart from the anus, so we have burp from the mouth and that is what that term means. "Utot sa baba" is just simply burp! Wahahah! I feel disgusted to that while we were eating but we really laugh at it. I really enjoyed the day. Well, gotta go now. Have to shop a 'lil! God bless everyone and thanks for the funny day with my hon's family! Weee! :-)

Sunset Bids

2008-10-16T09:45:00.000-07:00

Craddle

by Akiss

I miss my baby, I miss his love,

I miss his arms around me at night,

I miss his hugs, I miss his kisses,

I miss everything that my baby gives.

When she was gone you are with me,

And now she's coping and you are away,

When will you be back into my side,

Baby I'm waiting for you to lay.

You said you don't want us to break,

You said you don't want me to be hurt,

I believe on every word you have said,

I find ways and find some efforts.

I want you here beside me again,

My heart finds you and drop a tear,

Thinkin' that you'll be back to make and end,

My baby just stop it and say you'll stay.

Just transferring my day's off date,

Insanely done to be with you longer,

But how could you ignore the plan?

You haven't realized how it's done?

I broke up with you 'cause I am hurt,

I can't bear a pain of a concubine,

We are the second apple of the eye,

So let's stop this cruelty and lies.

I want to stay but say you'll value me,

Just make some efforts and I will risk,

We both have main to gain some pain,

But keep on loving and we will remain.

First Descendants

2008-10-10T07:02:00.000-07:00

(Sigh)..I felt so tired and lonely today. Classes has already ended. I had this part time job in a University and I had my 1st, 2 sections under me. Both 2nd yr. students from Pharmacy and ITE department. My pharm class consist mostly of girls while my ITE class is consist mostly of bois. That is the reason why they almost have their own partners from their other class. I felt scared when I 1st teach because certainly, that is the 1st time I'm going to handle a real class. All i had is just reportings before with my own classmates.But this one is for real! Like I do most of the talks but I really love it specially when I really had a lot to talk about. It was a combination of excitement and challenge thinking on how my 2 classes would go. I never thought that i could be this close to them. I remember one said that they learned while having fun. It was really my point then and so I was really happy to hear it.! I will never forget my coach, Eman in my networking class, the animator, Paul J., Manong and Mrs. Manlangit, "'d drank" Pan, "'d artist" Alfid, "Mr. Shiny hair" Rosquita; partner, servant, soldier and all Roldan, prayer leader Gella, the camera mens; chris, arbie and contact lens gurl, dhalxhie and many more, feeling Diet Barrameda(wahahhah!), Pating and d "wallet"(lol), Kikopitaps, Aningertz and the bugoy club(u know hu u r) hu never failed to show their interest, I trust you guys and I know you could be more! And for all those whom I did not mention, just bear with me cause there were just too many of you(hehehhe). Thanks a lot guys! If you thank me for learning a lot so am I cause I learned a lot as well! I can't stop a tear to drop when my partner and I talk bout it. I will really miss the fun, the faces, the uniqueness of each one. You were my 1st students and my inspiration to be more of me. I appreciate each one's love, care and cooperation in the class. Thanks for all the debuts that I was invited. To my pharm students who never failed to notice if i have a new or a change of shoes everyday. Thank you guys for the overall appreciation. The Mcdo debut of Tangi and his ever sweet partner Yamato, for the Kaputian with Maris, and the ever fun bday of Eman at penongs. The picture2 @ P's Park as well as all the emo's and the funniest people in my networking class. Good thing we never had the chance to feel sleepy during class. Do good guys! Me or maybe another teacher, learn a lot and be good! You could possibly a lot better than you may see me. I really enjoyed, learned and love a lot bout you guys in one package. To my Pharm and ITE descendants, my partners, my pals, my students..thanks for the ears you lend and the heart you have opened to love me. I'm gonna miss you badly..TC! :-(

Gehenna

2008-10-03T04:14:00.000-07:00

Bad ass he is. The nerve! I really wanna slap his face! What the..!! Imagine havin' dat reaction?! Just dat!?! Blind bastard and u wid ur bitch! Don't ever think u both are in to have favor on me. She might still have to be my youngster but not u damn! I don't know what's running into ur f*****' mind! U r so damn insensate! I'm still on my shus gud thing but once am not, don't ever do sumthin' stupid..what the hell are u thinkin' for acting like dat?! Ur not a soul u fool! My insanity really comes out 'cause sum1 triggers it. I 4got hu iam and all that I got. He is just a zilch in the direction to whimper! duh!

Dedicated...

2008-10-02T03:28:00.000-07:00

ME, Really?!
by a K i S s

Begin with walk on the air,
Back on them, Front on us,
We care, We turn our backs,
Rock on to d' game.

A lil' time to share,
Borowed for some way,
Hide and seek with us,
R u gona play?

Unplaned, Unwanted..
D' feelings started to raise,
Unwanted favor,
I jump and craze.

Intensity almost reached,
Was about to chus and stay,
Just wen i did,
Tilted and u go away.

F*** u 4 startin',
F*** u for leavin',
Player to player game,
Crafting me plunge, damn!

Tilt on ME

2008-10-01T21:02:00.000-07:00

Really so early to drop it. Well, i got nothin' else to do but scan on pages i wanna look into. Playing this list of shit music on mah player sucks! Got some lines on the song like "it felt so crazy...baby forget about me". It really feels bad that I let sum1 cum into mah shivering life and just leave w/out clearing everythin'. Everythin' bout that thingy is really my bad. It sucks that everytym i asked that damn, he says nothing really cool on the other side of him. But guess what?! Just by scanning into web pages, fuckin' asshole is makin' a new day with that side w/out even tellin' me dat its getin' well. He was lost in me and so am I. I was nick on deeming that there was sumthin but there isn't. How could he start this bulls*** and cut me off?! Well, i was into this and must know the way out. The only gaffe that dickhead did is deciding to do it to ME. He should have mourn on playing the same player that he is. There's no good thing I can say now. But am totally livid and very very mad. Can't imagine if i could only burst this out noticeably, goodluck to the Philippines! lol. Still manage to laugh huh?! But this is serious, he should have chosen the person to rock on. No more baby...washy washy mode now! Done with that chapter so goodbye to mah beloved soul. F***!

Listen

2008-06-29T16:14:00.000-07:00

Never had said I'm gonna lose the feeling but I lose him. I don't know why and don't know that it was going to happen. We'd never been together for long so I would not say I'm in love with him. I have my man and I still respect that matter. This other guy is just new, vague and easy. In behalf he's damn childish. I understand that he may act like that but he is supposed to be understanding the life around him. He would have just do good things to the one he cares but never really to those who are just around him. I know that he is trying to go back to the good man he is(i know he has a good side though). I just want to let go and give him up. There is this girl who's also close to me and really very sweet and good. I'm happy that she may be the one. I would be a lot happier if this guy would change because of her. I'm aching and it makes me want to drop a tear. I felt crying in front of him. "Whoever she is, that may not be me but just go back to the good person i felt you are." How I wish I could be the one but I think I will never be. He is starting to drop his passion to maybe win this girl. I'm happy that he is changing for somehow inspired with the presence of a girl, my friend i may say. I'm just hoping that his glow would cure my letting go. I don't know why I have the highest hope on him. I can't even explain why every time I get mad at him, there is always something pulling me back on staying with him and understanding his vague side. I'm a friend to him now and I'm supposed to be acting that way. Sometimes, it makes me want to run away. I want to see him happy but with another girl, one of the closest, it would make me bleed. As what I'm saying, I hope he could be happy with me and change for good as well. But now I guess its not my way to do it. I have to smile for them and I have to cry when they turn their back on me and laugh for being together. I want to accept that we are over whatever it is that we have or I have for him. I guess I would just keep on singing in my mind...the song I keep on listening right now. I asked him to sing for me and this song that keeps on playing now reminds me of his smile, his laugh and his smell...don't make any "Trouble" now...

Sooo Pissed Off

2008-05-28T23:53:00.000-07:00

I cant construct my words. I've been spending minutes here and I still don't know how to state things. I'm just gonna make this straight. I hate being played like a fool specially when I'm starting to like a person. Hell with those who feel they are God and feel so great with themselves. I was about to fall and a guy just messed up on me. "Don't mess with pigs because pigs likes dirty and you might get dirty as well". He really is a pig and I'm starting to get dirty! I have a lot of cursing in mind but I don't want to write it here. I felt played and fooled! Just one thing. If your not on my page just tell me. You don't have to play or fool me. I need honesty and I don't want to think that you're one of them. I still have small chances for you. You're not oblige to do any good. Just be honest even if it's the worst. Just let me know my tone so I know where to position myself, what to act towards this shit and what to do to be out of it! Good enough?! You should be catching up my point now! Just simply tell me the truth and go away. You just wasted my time and my emotions towards you. I'm starting to get weak and I hate it because I'm not suppose to be affected. Gosh! I can't believe its happening again. I never learned! I want to think I'm wrong but where are you? I can't feel you and I can't see you. Go to hell!!!! grrrrrrr...!!! I'm really so mad of myself. I felt crying for being so stupid! I did one bad step again and I'm thinking how to get my dignity back! I want to scream every time I wake up and he is the first thing that comes in my mind. Get lost you dick head! I should not care because he doesn't even give a damn care. I have to tone down and forget whatever happened and whatever I feel. This is not doing any good for myself. I should learn out of it. Its just too hard for me to accept the situation because I'm already into it. Amnesia please! I really hate this and its happening again.

Hopin' I wasn't Wrong

2008-05-24T23:59:00.000-07:00

Finally have done a very stupid thing in my recent life. The kindest thing I can do is say to someone that I did something very unacceptable to make him go away. Rubbish isn't it?! Yeah, I know but that's all I think I can do to make him hate me. I always thought I was wrong but half of it was right because I thought that wasn't selfish. I'm definitely playing drama now. Sitting alone here in front of this computer...crying and hurt. I'm wondering if I did the right decision. I'm with a man who talks about marriage, kids, house...yada yada...it's all about future on the right time but it seems that it's slowly flying over the wind. We're ok and yes we really are. Maybe for him we are but for me I'm starting to get sick. Did I make the right decision of choosing him? I'm too prank I know but I felt useless. I don't know what's in his mind every time I'm asking what's wrong. I don't know if he really meant on saying nothing or he just don't want to talk about it. Are we just afraid to loose each other though we really want it to?! A part of me says hold on cause its normal but the other part of me just wants to go on...alone and without him. I'm not as productive as he is definitely because I'm fresh in this real world. I want to be as he is, more if I can. It takes time and I could never say I could be the person he wants me to be. I want to feel from him that he fully accepts me as who I am or who will I become in time. Its regardless if he forget to text me, pay attention with my messages, ignoring some of my achievements. I even feel that he doesn't really believe on me and on what I can do. It wasn't right to feel this way but I felt so small with him. Its not supposed to be like this. This is love isn't it?? It should be understanding, trust and not thinking against it. Its always kind I suppose but why is it that I felt it like were playing so selfish with each other. I don't have any comments right now maybe because I cant construct the right words to say. I understand that he is tired and he has a lot of obligations but he is not alone in this world. He may see me small but I also have my obligations. It might be small to him but its a lot bigger in my small world. I'm just hoppin' I was right on choosing him and giving him my life. I got nothing else to say...

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2008-05-13T01:34:00.000-07:00

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Dank für das Summer

2008-04-13T05:12:00.000-07:00

I woke up and...(sigh)! I don't really know how to start this. I don't want to talk about this again. Maybe I'm just starting to reminisce the past. They always say that love causes pain because of the memories. Well, too bad that's how my day started. Reminiscing the past...again! I was like trying to know what's the latest of this person. I tried to know the truth but there were a lot of versions. So I ended up confusing myself. I don't know what to think but I don't really need to think about it. I said I'm done already. I did it but just when I opened my YM account in another interface, there I found again that forbidden account. I was thinking it was wrong so i tried to send a message to find out but then I found out it was really his account. I don't know why it was not deleted on that interface. Well, I don't know how to delete it. I want to find out but then, just when I found out, I don't want to delete it anymore. Maybe because I was thinking that God has a reason why it has to appear there again. Well, It's another challenge for me to fight with. I was back again in this Summer time and it really triggers me to think of how it was during the last year's summer. Everything was just that person and I hate it! I felt reading our past text messages but good thing that phone was gone. I was reading his Friendster messages where everything started and the comment that he made for me. I was thinking if its really true. I felt that he used me and if he was thinking I did used him as well, so maybe we just used each other on those time. But I believe I don't, maybe he did. Enough with that! I write because everything just comes back to life. I felt like crying when I was reading his Friendster messages. The "Pls take care always" that I last heard a year ago or lesser and now, he had somebody else to say those lines. It was me but now it seems that the voice was so far. I can no longer hear it. I felt so emotional today. I prayed as I go to mass this evening. I hope that we both will be at peace again. If not as someone, at least as somebody. I would like to reach him my lines..."Thanks for that Summer"! I've been always humming and singing that song today. I want to cry it out again so that tomorrow, I'll forget all the pain. I believe his happy with someone else's arms...I'm happy for that. It really tears me apart but really I was thankful to have you, to learn from you, to feel real love when I felt no love at all, for making me happy on that very short time yet seems so long, for letting me experience another version of loving, for making me realize my worth, for making me the happiest princess as you were my prince, for the comfort, for the care and the tears you shed, for loving me as the most unworthy person to catch your loving...I did love you and thank you for everything. I will never forget that summer when you came and you catch me just when I was about to fall.

Thank You!

2008-04-08T01:26:00.000-07:00

I was so happy to have another shoulder other than the shoulders I already have. That is what this man is to me but above all, I have learned to love him more than I could imagine. It hurts me when stuffs like this happened. Insults! I hate it specially when its comes from him. Maybe I just don't want to hear it from the man I love. It's like embracing a love of pain. I was always thankful for the love he has for me and really thankful for every inch of help he gives me when I need him or when I cant really move for having nothing. I was always thankful and is always thankful for that but just when I have known those words from him...I was really disappointed. I'm happy for all the help he is giving but I never really forced him to give help. I borrow and I pay. If there's nothing to be borrowed then he could refuse. I mean, I don't want to just hear it at the end that there was actually a problem on that. I know that this person was really good...he shares a lot of what he had. A lot of people was thankful to that including me but I believe that Im the only person he had talked about this matter.I know it was not of his intention to insult me but I just felt that way. I never intended to be somebody's burden into their lives. I am always thankful for these kind of people who is always willing to help. Specially because this person is simply special to me. But I never expected this would happen. From now on, I will consider him as my last option on helping me to survive. I never forced him and I will never make him do it because of sympathy. Never again now that I knew what he felt and think about it.

Its the Number

2008-04-05T21:55:00.001-07:00

I keep on implanting into my mind that the person I knew was already happy with the life that he has. I want to forget and I want to get over. I was walking at Bajada last Friday from DOST office to LBP. As I was walking, I remembered the person who came to L2S to get me even though I was laughing at him because he might get lost. He doesn't really know Davao because he was new in here. But yet he came. Very sweaty maybe because of his adventure ride to an unknown place. I can still remember that he always waits for me for almost 2 hours because I was still on my OJT. I miss that person but I'm preventing to think about him. I always shook my head every time I remember anything about him. Just when I did, all the numbers we had show up. The numbers that we made meaning. It maybe 11, 0811, or 81. Out of the blue it just show up. It can be on a taxi, a jersey, shirt, booth, food court...as in everywhere. I just pretend I'm not seeing it and I throw away my sight to something else. It's not easy. When those numbers show up it makes me start on thinking about that person on my past. Well, the best thing is to smile and divert my emotions to anything else. As what I read from one of his writings, "Nobody wants to embrace pain, simply because its pain." Its something like that. Well, I'm inculcating to myself the same thing that he does to himself. Just really have to move on. I want to be happy for the separate lives and the persons that we both have in our life right now. If it will be us, then it will be us. I always believe on destiny and I know that it will lead us to the person really meant for us.

FAILED!

2008-04-05T21:37:00.000-07:00

Today is our PHILNITS exam schedule. Too bad I wasn't able to wake up early and be there on the venue. I was out last night and really got so tired. Well, I just missed the chance but the good thing was, I can still take it till I get older. Hahaha! So enough with the failure. All I know right now is that I really should work on my being late problem. It's always been a lesson to me every time I came late to my schedules. I learned but its just hard for me to make it. Maybe I need a lot of alarm clocks around me. Hahaha! I really love sleeping and go out at the same time. Its my relaxing mechanism other than playing my audition world. The best thing I have in mind right now is to stop being late before it's too late for me to get successful. I'd love to work and the only problem is my time management. It's not just "only" but its a real big problem I have.

Technical School

2008-04-05T06:01:00.000-07:00

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2008-04-05T04:35:00.000-07:00

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2008-04-03T09:21:00.000-07:00

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Whew!

2008-04-02T04:59:00.000-07:00

So I was 45min late when I arrived on that place. The Session was already starting and since a was a newbie out there, they considered me being late but then tomorrow will be no more rooms for late at all. Started so tired but a bit excited and nervous at the same time. I was not really definite of what I really feel that time. It's a challenge and somewhat a future challenge. Well, everybody was really competitive and had a lot of experience. Only a few where new grads and first timers. I was one of them. I was trying to be confident but then I can't really say to myself that I'm good. Well in fact there were a lot more of great persons out there. So it's really a whew for me because I was late and everybody was really acquainted with each other except me. The good thing was everybody was really so hospitable and caring and that really overwhelms me a lot on this first day. So as the session ended up, I gained friends, got nervous, learned a lot and got really sleepy. I fell asleep as I went home and just woke up by 5Pm and still so tired. I enjoyed the company so far despite of the pressure and a lot more things to think about. Well, I felt like I'm still inside a cave, a very dark one. I was still trying to explore the place and trying to find out how to find the light on the other end of the cave. I just wish I could find the light together with my batch, go to that light, reach the end and finally be out of that dark cave. I'm willing to work on it and I'm very much willing to learn. I pray that I could easily adopt the learnings we had and we will still have. Well...good luck to me and to my batch! I was really scared thinking on what would happen next. I just hope and pray that everybody would pass including me together with my new friends.

Captured Our Friendship

2008-03-31T05:11:00.000-07:00

Our friendship started since we started our college life. We were 5 before with another Ding Chrislyn but then she shifted to another course. Another friend came but then something happened and we ended up to four but still they are still our "Dings" by heart.

We call each other "Ding" which stands for "Bading". The first picture I have was during the Parent's Recognition Night held last March 23, 2008 @ UIC main campus auditorium. We had our parent's with us.

So this is us! Four years ago we were still that young by heart and face and right now, a little older face but still young at heart. Lol. From left is Ding yvon, Ding Daki, Ding Shamai and yours truly, Ding Akiss.

This second picture was during our graduation day. My thesis group and I almost failed to graduate but with the help of my Dings and other classmates, I became a part of that picture together with my closest friends. I'am very much happy to be joining my batch on that day. I felt so lucky and satisfied for marching after all the sacrifices we had. Sleepless nights with a maximum of 4hours of sleep a day, eyebugs because of the tears and sleepless nights, and the hunger for lack of money problem. As in weeeee...everything is over on that stage.

The last picture I have was during our Batch's outing at Samal Island. It was Juri's place and the two graduates sections merged to have fun on this outing. We really had a lot of fun that time even it was raining, black-out came and it was really so cold and dark around. We had fun during our game, foods and drinks as well. So this was, is, and forever "Dings" I have and I will always treasure in my whole life! Thank you so much for the friendship guys! Thanks for everything and I love you all! Keep in touch and see you around! I'm just an e-mail, text message, friendster and blog away! God bless us all!

No Trust

2008-03-31T02:25:00.000-07:00

Had realized that years together doesn't measure the trust you can give. After a revelation, I don't have any idea in mind on how will a person prove itself to be trusted after now that somebody had shown me that years together cant even help on earning trust! Right now, I'm not sure when should I trust a person. I know that's a very big thing in every relationship no matter who he or she is. That's one of the primary aspects in making a relationship strong but how could we really trust a person? I'am speaking to any matter...love, business, family, friends and a lot more. Trust is always at the top to make things flow well. I was really so disappointed knowing that this person, still cant be trusted! I have changed to prove that I was wrong, that I can be loyal and I can be trusted again. It doesnt matter if that person is away or you never had seen him/her even once. The point is, you have jumped into that kind of game. It's an insult to the other person who believes and thinks that you are also faithful to him/her. I know how to respect, I know not to be rude, I recognize people and I believe that these things should also be done to me. I cant be perfect in performing these things but I know how to do it and will always remember to do it to every deserving people I know.

Non-Stop Trip

2008-03-31T02:14:00.001-07:00

I was away for 4 days from the city where I spent my college life. Not that far but really had a lot of fun with my clasm8s during the trip. Last March 27, 08 me and my ITE batch went to Jury's place at Samal Island. We had our rain and black-out experience during our stay. A lot of picture taking, full of laughs, dances, drinks....hahai! The best bond ever merging the two sections of ITE graduates. I will never forget the drinking sessions of the bois and the "wait sa ha ke niuyog na ang davao" and the "kadali lng ke mg CR sako!". Hahaha!!! Really laugh a lot with these lines. Sexy gurls never missed to show. Now I can really say that we really had a lot of sexy bodies in our batch and you know who you are guys. Heheheh!!! Another thing I will never forget is of course, our winning team which is the "TEAM MARIMAR" (akiss, rose, chairman, jr, francis and gerald). We really had a lot of fun during the game and we won! As what I said to my team "It's better to win in fairness!". We had our overnight and went home March 28 in the afternoon after our lunch. Very full from our lunch, we packed our things and went home. Just slept in Davao that night and the following day which is 29th, we went to Bansalan to join the thanksgiving party of "Ate Mona" @ their house. On the next day, we went to Kamonsilan Resort and had our POOL sessions. lols. I dont know how to swim so I had my practice to the max. So laag with all the freedom and very full of the foods and drinks served plus the non-stop videoke. As what they say, "Enjoy2 while wla pa work". But of course, after all these things, we still have another plans to Mati. That's the next trip soon but it will only happen if we had enough money so better work, work, and work sooner. Thanks for the fun guys! See you all soon and good luck to our very own reality word journey!

Gone Today and Again for 6 Days!

2008-03-19T06:20:00.000-07:00

I know I should cry but I don't have any tears left! Just last 6 days, I lost my 8210 with TM sim because I went out of the house 1:30 am. So sleepy and tired with my two phones on my hand, I never realized that after riding the jeep, I only have 1 phone left on my hand. Whew! So bad! I was not that affected that time because it was my old phone and it was my TM sim. Im not really using it that much anyway. I have that to let my sister call me easily. Well actually, on those times it was not that important because i only have one major aim in mind. After passing our thesis, I was just at rest for a day and after that day, we joined the graduation practice at Bajada. Still tired and sleepy, I lost my second phone without knowing where I left it. (Lost gani! hai!) Yes, after 6 days, I lost my LG phone with my SMART sim and right now, I don't have any phone left. Huhuhu. Because of good hands around, I had my new number and temporary phone. So i would like to take this opportunity to inform everybody who knows me to save my new number. Its 09197264183. That will be my permanent number but just for tonight till tomorrow, I'm still using this number: 09283907916. So please save it guys and tell our other friends who doesn't know. Thank you so much and I'll be happy to accept messages from you guys so I can save your numbers again! Thanks a lot and God bless to all.

First day with Normal Sleep

2008-03-19T06:00:00.000-07:00

So my mother was here on that day that we passed! I never expected her to come but we have a relative who died and she has to come here in Davao. I still don't have plans of telling her because I wanted to surprise my family but since she's there already, then i guess I really should. So she was with me on the "first night of back to my normal sleep". hehhe...Well, fortunately, she was there to massage my back. We had a lot of chat that night and I was happy to see her happy seeing her child smiling again the usual way. Well, I fell asleep because of the massage and never even manage to change my clothes. Mother really didnt bother to wake me up because I know, she knows deep down how tired I'am. I woke up like 7:30 and maybe I was so paranoid thinking that we still have thesis to do. I mean the system. I was just at eased when I finally realize that, It was done already and no tears but smile is back to me. It was really overwhelming and was really very happy but that was not yet the end of everything because I still have to worry my grades. Well, good luck to me and to all of the graduating students. Above all, I was really so thankful to all the people who helped us worked on asking the last chance to have our final defense.

Take 3!

2008-03-19T03:37:00.000-07:00

Blog life is finally back! I still can't believe Im up again and I would really like to thank God and all of the people who helped us passed our thesis. After 3 Defenses, finally, sleepless nights were over! I was really so exhausted and worried about the issue of graduating or not but right now, I'm finally out of the dark. For 1 month of straight work with a maximum of 4hrs of sleep per day...Wohhh! It's really incomparable and an unforgettable experience i will never forget all my life. The good thing was, I learned a lot! Learned about "ATTITUDE counts". Before making any step, you should always bring with you your trust to yourself on making a project done. Plus we have DETERMINATION and of course...ACTION! Never ever loose hope and never stop asking yourself until you get satisfied of what you are doing. Never be ashamed of asking help because nobody is perfect. You may think you are the best because you are assuming! That is what you really are! Always stay humble and accept that you cannot live alone. Success is not just about yourself but of many people who cares around you. Dont push them away cause you'll never know that this person you're pushing is actually the person who will never leave you up to the end. Lastly is prayers. Never forget to pray and remember that prayers without faith is nothing. It must always be from your heart. I was into a lot of doing bad things and God might be thinking I forgot bout Him. After all those trials and challenges that happened, I only have this one thing in mind...God just wants me to know Him again!

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2008-03-07T04:09:00.000-08:00

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2008-03-07T04:03:00.000-08:00

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2008-03-07T03:58:00.000-08:00

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Mortgages

2008-02-22T02:43:00.000-08:00

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2008-02-13T18:57:00.000-08:00

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2008-02-13T18:55:00.000-08:00

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2008-02-10T08:00:00.000-08:00

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2008-02-07T04:16:00.000-08:00

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Mystery of Opposed Mistress

2008-02-06T00:21:00.000-08:00

Simply Frustrating!

by Akiss

Really tried to be quiet, away, alone

Converse a little, ending tears

Talk and made me realize

Nothing is in fact real.

Featuring me and faded

Calls the hug of soul

A kiss from that spirit

There will be no more.

Tears of worries for pain

Pride behind it

Not of love but shame

Dream it is, I succumb!

Fairy tales for princess

For real I am not

So you’re not my prince

Fooled me that is real.

Insults everywhere

No lies but delayed

Never hear, never believed

You were just overwhelmed isn’t it?!

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2008-02-01T20:35:00.001-08:00

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2008-02-01T03:34:00.000-08:00

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2008-02-01T02:02:00.000-08:00

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2008-02-01T01:32:00.000-08:00

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2008-01-30T04:07:00.000-08:00

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2008-01-30T04:03:00.000-08:00

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2008-01-28T21:11:00.000-08:00

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2008-01-27T03:20:00.000-08:00

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2008-01-24T00:47:00.000-08:00

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2008-01-23T05:20:00.000-08:00

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2008-01-22T23:08:00.000-08:00

Today's featured site is a site which offers information on various medical training and medical careers. Medical-Career-Training.com was designed to provide visitors with the most comprehensive information available on medical training programs nationwide. This site provides information on career options for individuals looking to work in the medical field, as well as the degrees available and course offerings at leading institutions. They also have school forms which are constantly updated to maintain the accuracy and integrity of their partners, and enable you to request information directly from campus and online schools to learn more about their programs. They also allow you in their site to search online schools by state.
See what it takes to be a nurse , a healthcare administrator , or an x-ray technician . Featured articles are also shown on their website for you to check out. Those articles is where they present valuable insights into specific industries and topics. Whether you're just starting out in the medical industry, researching the latest medical trends or looking to further your professional career, Medical-Career-Training.com connects you to the information you need to be successful! Visit their website now!

Slots

2008-01-20T06:17:00.000-08:00

Another online website is welcoming all addicted players of online slots to join them. In Privbetting.com, you will find online slot machines, free casino games and reviews of reputable internet casinos. They have been proven giving great service for they have been gambling online since 2001. They have developed the monkey slots website to help each interested player to find the best casinos on the web! You can take advantage of their exclusive free slot machine bonuses if you start being a part of them now! Very interesting because you can play for real at top rated online casinos. They are giving each player very much of convenience because they will be guiding you on a safe slot gambling adventure, showing you jackpot slot machines and original online slots games with reliable casino reviews found only at their website. So don't waste time guys! Have fun and join Privbetting.com now!

Online Casino

2008-01-18T09:48:00.000-08:00

Another website had opened and presented an online game that will surely make casino addicts glad. This another interesting website for best casino players is the x-casinos.com. This is a site dedicated to all online casino gamblers around the world. They provide a step-by-step guide on how to get started, present the rules for all popular games and gives you guide to the largest bonuses and most profitable online casino games. You'll also find unbiased reviews of the best casinos on the Internet. Their categories available at their website are casino games, casino reviews, general gambling news, online blackjack , online casino and online video poker. They also give you the freedom to choose a language for you to easily understand the game. You can probably relate to the game that easy for your own language. Play online now and join the other casino addicted players. Visit their website and the be a part of one of the coolest games worldwide.

Nursing Homes

2008-01-18T09:32:00.000-08:00

Bettercaring is a dedicated service for anyone who needs answers to crucial questions about care for themselves or their loved ones. They feature a section called care information where they provide covering issues that are important to the choices you any viable person can make. This includes finances as well as options such as home or residential care. They always take note that convinince is also one of what your asking. That is why, they also feature health matters section where they have archived features and information on health issues any site visitor may be concerned about, from bed sores to dementia. At bettercaring you can look at the care options that are available to you locally, as well as search for care homes that fit special requirements. With bettercaring, you will have the freedom to choose nursing homes just as how you want it to be .You can arrange the right kind of care, as well as read daily care news and receive tips on from care experts. They always provide the best that their customers can have. So visit their website now!

Hotel Reservations

2008-01-18T08:25:00.000-08:00

A website that is finally in hand to get an easy access to fast reservation is already here! Everything you asked is on this website. Just right in budget because you got all your choices from hotels, motels and resorts. They feature hotel reservations. They offer very affordable hotel discounts for a very quality and satisfying comfort of hotels in different countries. It’s worldwide so there is no problem for you to think. They also feature different motels and resorts where you can surely enjoy your free time as you are having the time of your life. They give you the freedom to choose vacations rental destination by presenting you a map or to search a destination where you want to go for your vacation.

They also offer vacation packages to offer low prices for the people who really schedule a lot of trips. They offer discounts worldwide for a very incomparable price just right and really satisfying for the vacationers to pay for all the great offers they have. You can book your trip online or call their reservation agents toll-free at 1-(800) 893-4086. They also feature road trip where you can find great destinations and fantastic deals just a short drive from wherever you are.

For more information or to make your reservation, you can call toll free. Just dial this number: 1-800-447-4136 (in US & Canada). They are open 24 hours, 7 days a week. If you are currently in Europe, you can call this number: 00-800-1276-3549. This is valid in UK, France, Germany, Spain, Italy, Ireland, Portugal, Switzerland, and Australia. If you love traveling, no problem because they also have a worldwide phone no: (1) 817-333-5105. They are really providing much convenience to the viable customers. So you better be buzzing them at their website. Visit them now and avail their great offers! You will surely enjoy your trip and you will always keep on wanting to visit again some other places with full comfort and convenience like home.

Bad Credit Loans

2008-01-15T20:22:00.000-08:00

Finally a website had come to provide and compile each day's top offers of a free consumer resource dedicated to helping those with a less-than-perfect credit rating. The website I’m referring to is the BadCreditOffers.com. This website would definitely help you to give great resource to help consumers get back on their feet financially. They also allow those who are visiting their website to compare dozens of bad credit offers from major providers and find the best offer to fit their needs.

They also have their expert staffs that continuously monitor the credit marketplace to bring consumers the best "bad credit" offers available. They aim to provide consumers with the knowledge and resources necessary to help them find the best credit offer to fit their needs, regardless of a bad credit history. So no worries for your 2 bad credit loans because they already have solutions for you.

You can visit their website now and find the best credit offer to fit your financial need. They allow every visitor to search by choosing a category which they provided right on the first page of their website. You are also very free to compare credit card offers for people with bad credit and apply online instantly. They also feature low APRs from First Premier, Orchard, and others. Visit them now!

Smorty

2008-01-15T03:53:00.000-08:00

I first heard about Smorty from a friend I had in school. I was blogging before but I was not that active though I have heard a lot saying that I could earn through my blog. It was not much of my interest since I can’t get the point on how it works. As I was gaining some rank, I was just happy about it but I still don’t know how to start earning through my blog. I have asked a lot of my friends but only a few had this great patience on teaching me all of the steps. Realizing that Smorty could make me and all other people earn makes me want to go and go. What is really Smorty? Smorty is a service connecting advertisers with bloggers. Advertisers can pay bloggers to write opinion posts with links back to the advertiser’s site. Bloggers are get paid to blog. Each blogger who signs up to their website are get paid for blogging. Their way is to have an advertiser and a blogger to make blog advertising. Advertiser’s will be asking a blogger to advertise on blogs. Of course, a blogger must have its own blog page where he/ she can write about the website or anything that the advertiser wants to be advertised. A lot are really taking advantage on blog for money. You better join us now!

Online Casino

2008-01-15T03:20:00.000-08:00

Pro360 online casino has a list of hundreds of the best online casinos.Casino Reviews provides help for the viable players to easily find a gambling online from almost 3000 online casinos. Pro360 provides a player some factors game experience, trust score and bonuses offered by each casino including all American Casinos. These factors are important in the selection of your favorite online casino and casino games such as online poker, craps, slots and roulette. Every player has their own preferences in game, features, bonus structures and graphics, so it's important that Pro360 list these in detail so your gambling experience can begin with less troubles and more excitement!

They are also giving you the opportunity to click on the signup bonus banners on every review page to get your bonus before you start. Many casino signup bonuses are greater than what the online casinos offer directly. They are all complete in their website a list of the top 20 reviewed casinos on the lower part of the front page and the game types above will give you the game reviews within all of their 75 casinos.

Shopping Cart Software

2008-01-15T01:09:00.000-08:00

Ashop Commerce allows you to create your online store because it has affordable ecommerce software. They also accept credit cards online and a very easy access to have a shopping cart software in which features and design allow you to build 'top shelf' online stores for only a small monthly investment. They also provide 10 days free trial to have an easy understanding of the transactions happening inside.

Ashop Commerce is continuously researching the most sophisticated search engine updates to make sure your products rank the highest they can on major search engines. Ashop Commerce has the ecommerce software helping merchants climb to the top of the search engines.

Ashop Commerce shopping cart is integrated with all major banks, gateways and third party processors including PayPal (full functionality integration). They offer advice on obtaining credit card processing facilities. It is very good to choose Ashop Commerce because its, affordable, easy to use, it has technical support and customer service plus, they provide total solution.

Cash Advance

2008-01-14T21:04:00.000-08:00

Cash advance and payday loans are advantages to consumers who need fast, unsecured loans in times when they can’t wait for payday. Cash advance checks usually processed faster. You are given a chance to apply anonymously from the public. The application you have can be completed in the privacy of your own home and as long as you have your internet, you can have time to find all the cash advance information you need at home. You don’t need anymore the usual wasting of time and standing in line at a store for hours. Applying for a cash advance payday loan over the internet is a fast way to fund a personal checking or savings account. Payday loans are a good alternative to bouncing checks, selling personal property for less than it is worth, or uncomfortable situations like borrowing money from family and friends.

The majority of payday loans lenders and allow clients the option of “rolling over” a loan, meaning that the loan is extended to the next payday and the subsequent fees are doubled. Many people have a need from time to time for short-term financial assistance and payday loans provide a viable solution. When used responsibly, pay day loans can solve to these short-term cash needs effectively.

Ashop Commerce

2008-01-14T20:42:00.000-08:00

Ashop Commerce is a leading provider of hosted shopping cart software. It offers a complete solution for merchants to sell online. You can also create your online store because Ashop Commerce has affordable ecommerce software . They also accept credit cards online and a very easy access to have a shopping cart software in which features and design allow you to build 'top shelf' online stores for only a small monthly investment.They also provide 10 days free trial to have an easy understanding of the transactions happening inside.

Ashop Commerce shopping cart is integrated with all major banks, gateways and third party processors including PayPal (full functionality integration). Credit cards are now a widely accepted form of payment in online stores and their built in SSL protection (checkout security) means that customers pay with confidence. They offer advice on obtaining credit card processing facilities. It is very good to choose Ashop Commerce because its, affordable, easy to use, it has technical support and customer service plus, they provide total solution.

Real Estate Property Home Listings

2008-01-11T02:09:00.000-08:00

Welcome Home is a website which is a starting point for finding a new home in UK. As well as listing houses, it displays area reviews, an interactive map and a detailed table of information about property prices in the area. It has a wide huge range of features such as a technically advanced property finding service showing properties for sale and rent in any area. They have these over 12,000 UK estate agents, that are willing to cater you and making it one of the most comprehensive and accurate databases in the country. On the website they highlighted the buy 2 bed flat in Bedminster Bristol and Abram Manchester one bed flats for sale. View their site now!

Small Business Loan

2008-01-09T00:58:00.000-08:00

EZUnsecured.com has specialized in helping small business owners and entrepreneurs obtain the capital they need to succeed through small business loans. Most Small Businesses fail because of cash flow challenges, which can easily be avoided by having the right Business Financing in place before the need arrives. The search for unsecured business financing can be very time consuming, frustrating, and often times backfire and actually hurt your Credit History. You earn your money running your business and making sales, not hunting for unsecured financing and dealing with banks. EZUnsecured.com will help you on handling small business financing so you can do what you do best and maximize your valuable time. They offer small business loan that is surely acceptable on your own terms. Working with EZUnsecured.com gives you benefits such as; easy process, fast funding and excellent service.

LifeLock

2008-01-09T00:22:00.000-08:00

You got to visit LifeLock.com which offers the most comprehensive ID-Security programs. LifeLock’s services are the most advanced, safest and easiest to use. Lifelock will guarantee your identity up to $1,000,000. LifeLock is America's #1 Identity Theft Prevention Program. To receive the best discount available use the promotion code RD17. When purchasing an annual membership to LifeLock you will receive 30 Days Free and $21.00 OFF the annual subscription price of LifeLock, or if you choose to pay monthly, you will receive 10% off you subscription cost just by using the LifeLock promotion code RD17. We have scoured the web and this is by far the best discount offered to the general public. They have list of LifeLock promotion code which offers one free month and 17.5% OFF annual membership. LifeLock also provides; no more junk mail, $1 Million guarantee, free credit reports, no more unsolicited credit card offers, and notice whenever anyone tries to use your credit. They also offer you solutions on how to recognize identity theft and make an identity security just for you. They also give ideas on how to understand the threat and learn how to protect your sensitive information so you stay off a hacker’s radar. Be secured and learn now!

Drug Rehab Referral Service

2008-01-08T23:50:00.000-08:00

This website highlights health, family, social services, mental health, psychology, drugs of abuse, parenting, or other such topics. 1-800-NODRUGS.com drug rehabilitation referral service is of no-cost to you, this website offers service designed to help drug addicts, alcoholics, chronic relapse victims, and their families find an effective drug rehab and intervention for alcoholism and drug addiction of the highest quality at no cost.

There many options for drug rehab, drug rehabilitation, and drug treatment programs and organizations available. The best drug treatment program is very specific to the individual involved. Drug rehab is not one fits all. Finding the most effective and lasting drug rehab treatment program for you or your loved ones is one of the most difficult and important decisions you will have to make.

There are thousands of drug rehab and alcohol rehab organizations in this country at the moment, and knowing which one to send your loved one to is a daunting task. They may help you by giving you advices on which rehabilitation is more applicable to cure you or your loved ones never out of care and love as they are cured. They also have examples of the list of different types of drug rehab programs where you can place your loved one in their most appropriate place where they can change.

There are many different types of addictions, and there is a lot of information that you have to be aware of before you begin to deal with your own particular addiction or the addictions of your loved ones. Drug rehab Programs can offer you information on drug addictions and available drug treatment programs. Many of the counselors and intake specialists in these programs understand addictions because they were once addicted too.

The website is a free, non-profit portal for finding a long or short-term drug rehabilitation program that is right for your particular needs. There is never a charge for the referral, and their services are always available for you 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

MagicHoldem Poker Odds Calculator

2008-01-08T23:40:00.000-08:00

MagicHoldem^TM brings you online poker’s most advanced and easy-to-use Texas Hold’em Calculator. The site gives you all the explanations you will need right on the first page of their site. MagicHoldem Poker Odds Calculator is a Card Game product from magicholdem.com. If you play online poker to win and want to take your poker skills to the next level you need to play smart and you need MagicHoldem by your side! Dominate your opponents, win more hands and make playing online poker easier with our Poker Calculator. Created with the help of Professional Poker players and Award Winning Statistic Experts, our state-of-the-art Poker Odds Calculator tool gives you the most accurate odds and offers the best professional advice anywhere online.

Online Casino

2008-01-08T07:39:00.000-08:00

32Vegas, which is an online casino, aims to put you in a glamorous and fashionable environment with the feel of stepping into a real Las Vegas Strip casino. On top of that, your odds of being a winner are likely a lot better than in any live casino thanks to the massive 320% sign-up bonus. The Vegas casino uses a custom version of the immensely popular PlayTech software, with more than 130 different casino games of the highest quality to suit all tastes. Of course you can play all of the old-fashioned casino classics at 32Vegas, like blackjack, roulette and craps, some of them even with live dealers, but perhaps even more intriguing are the huge progressive jackpots. The site also offers you the freedom to choose your own language so you can totally relate to the games. The best thing is that, one’s you open this website, it will prompt you immediately to download the game while you are still browsing the site and discovering the whole thing. Join the online players now!

Mac Games and More

2008-01-06T02:37:00.000-08:00

Want to make fun with your Mac PC? No problem because apple games were now available in just one stop website. The website has weekly news of Macintosh software and hardware. They also feature free software and games that are downloadable for just a click of your fingertips. More and a lot more fun for your Mac! They also has link on a mac blog wherein you can view other featured products of mac with its very amusing design. On that page you can view the images and some of the specifications that those products have. Extra convenience they offer to you once again. One of their most popular game is the mac mahjong complete with the description and the features of the said game. Enjoy the games and learn more on how to make use of the services that the website can offer. Visit their website now!

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Engagement Rings

2008-01-03T03:53:00.000-08:00

If you were about to propose to someone you love, www.jamesallen.com is the best website you really have to visit. They sell Wide range of engagement, wedding and anniversary diamond jewelry from one of the most progressive online diamond jewelers. You and your partner will surely love their best selling designs. The site really has a lot to offer. Varieties of very adorable products are displayed for your easy view online. If you want to buy their product online, no problem because online buying is also acceptable. They also have their full technical support to help you when a technical problem will occur. They offer diamond engagement rings with the opportunity to view on different kinds of diamonds only on its finest cut in every shape, color and clarity. Engagement rings were on their line so you better try to see some and satisfy your eyes. You got to buy now with the lowest price ever!

Surveys Made Fun

2008-01-03T01:39:00.000-08:00

There were really a lot of ways to earn online! Its just a matter of determination! Luck I may say! Just try clicking on the image and start earning online. Good luck guys! For a few words...you will probably be up! See you there!

Computer Games

2007-12-30T11:03:00.000-08:00

Midoritech.com introduces audience to different games available in their website. MindMidori is a new company presently offering entertainment products. They offer games for kids and an easy download of mac games for your mac pc. They are looking forward of offering more software and games as time moves on. Their environmental game, Global Warning, will teach you and your family easy tips that can make a big difference in the world. They are striving to make quality recreational games and software for people of all ages speacially games for kids. Purchasing Midori software and games online is safe because their store is powered by Plimus. You may not know about Pilmus but this is one of the most trusted and secured online payment systems that use industry standard encryption. Sure fun is guaranteed and convenience is highly offered!

Online Backgammon

2007-12-29T03:37:00.000-08:00

Mister-Gammon's is aiming to provide you with a thrilling venue to experience the pleasure of online backgammon gaming in a trustworthy environment.

Mister Gammon is another online backgammon site offering backgammon players the latest information about backgammon tournaments and events as well as backgammon software for real money or just for fun. The site is also available in six languages like of other backgammon websites. In here you can meet people from all over the world and join 24/7 tournaments!

Backgammon online business is operating since 1999 thriving online backgammon games. At Mister-Gammon you are sure to get the best service while experiencing the extreme fun playing online backgammon.

Phelios Games

2007-12-29T03:24:00.001-08:00

Phelios Incorporated is an independent video game developer offering electronic delivery software. They offer exciting computer games and the advantage of download games just on the first page of the website and as you click on your desired game. They also offer mac games that you will surely love with that very high-quality computer. Their main ambition is to create entertaining games for the MAC and PC platforms. Phelios strives to create quality computer games to provide entertainment to people of all ages and backgrounds with engaging game play while also providing excellent customer service and free technical support. Their website is very easy to access and has a very convenient downloading section and certainly fun playing as well!

Business-Essay

2007-12-29T02:40:00.000-08:00

Business-Essay is professional writing, editing and proofreading service. They provide custom written essays, term papers and research papers for students of levels. They give guides on how to make a term paper like those of the high school research papers.

A MLA term paper is a kind of work in which requirements were presented by the Modern Language Association. It is very important that you should know the format of the term paper you should prepare.

Articles and website content can also be professionally written by the company just by visiting their website. Absolute security is guaranteed! They will be assuring you that nobody will ever find that you are using custom writing services. Plagiarism is never on their line. They provide a FREE plagiarism report on your custom essay right after your order is completed.

Online Backgammon

2007-12-29T02:19:00.000-08:00

Once you get into this backgammon online, full home treatment is already at its existence. The website is available in six languages that is why a lot has a chance to play in their own convenient understanding. All the links are very easy to understand that will lead you to fast way of being connected with the other enthusiastic players.

Gammon Fortune is an online backgammon site offering backgammon players the latest information about backgammon tournaments and events as well as backgammon software for real money or just for fun. Better play backgammon now!

Play Slots

2007-12-29T01:45:00.000-08:00

Sloterix is one of the oldest slots site over the net. The website you are going to see behind is one of the most expedient play slots website ever. To mention a few slots games they offer are the Eurogrand slots, 32Vegas slots and the Prestige slots. Players continue on coming back to play because they enjoy all the marvelous interactive online slots games. Their common objective at Sloterix.com is to make you enjoy the greatest casino slots playing experience and to make it as entertaining and trouble-free as possible. Sloterix.com's online support team is available to help out permanently 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Have fun and play online now!

Online Casinos

2007-12-29T01:19:00.000-08:00

A website is finally up to provide you independent online gambling portal & casino guide that provides up to date gambling information about the best online casinos in the world. It offers different kinds of top online casinos of today namely; Mansion Casino, Eurogrand Casino, 32vegas Casino, Joyland casino, USA CASINO, Amber Coast Casino, Jackpot Kings, Casino Tropez, Vegas Red, Casino on Net, Diamond Club Casino and New York casino. You will never be far behind because the website gives you list of new casino online. If you are super passionate to these games, just catch up with them because their website is very comprehensible that could make you get connected and join the players easily with just a few clicks.

Splendor of France

2007-12-29T00:53:00.000-08:00

Haven’t gone yet to France by myself but what really makes me want to be there is the enthusiasm to discover the France’s secrets and the scenery that one will experience as they choose to travel in this country.

France is the most visited country in the world. It has everything that you could ever want to see with its great city like Paris, good beaches, more monuments than any other country, lovely nature, and incredible mountain scenery. I’ve been reading articles about France and it is indeed a very pleasant place to stay. Surely visitors will enjoy their good food and great wines. The best thing I’ve ever heard about this country is that you don’t live here in the expensive way. I know a lot of us were really concerned of our budget with full fun as we travel. Paris, the city of light and its surroundings are one of the most visited areas. Paris is without a doubt one of the most beautiful cities on the planet. You’ll never regret if you chose to decide a trip to France.

Computer-Based Training

2007-12-29T00:40:00.001-08:00

"Computer Based Training" or commonly known as Computer Assisted Tutorials is a process of learning that is not executed in the traditional manner.

Computer based training involves learning using software applications installed in computers. The student is trained by the computer effectively and the teachers won’t take part at all. Oftentimes, this method of learning can be much more effective than the practice of teaching and learning in classrooms because the student, if working alone, can set his or her own speed of learning.

We may find it impossible for people to make use of computer based training which requires an exceptional amount of hardware and software. But that was just before because nowadays, everyone has access to a personal computer at home, at work or at computer labs in schools or libraries. This kind of access to computers has helped to see an increase in the use of Computer Learning courses and to develop the Leadership Skills of each student, as well as the growth in the computer based training industry.

Business Foundation Repair Experts

2007-12-29T00:14:00.000-08:00

If you are a business-minded person, you may be thinking about making your business more efficient and performing well. Well there is a website that could definitely help you on “Change management”, “Performance management”, and “Organizational Design”.

Businesses without a solid foundation cannot or do not repair the “cracks” that companies inevitably develop as they grow. It cannot be denied that businesses are not perfect and there are certain times that they face on problems and errors on handling the business. You will be in need of guide and help. No harm because finally, there’s a website that’s open to help you if the “cracks” will occur. If they will remain ignored, sooner or later it will cause the business’s foundation to crumble. The goal of this firm is to become your partner in repairing these “cracks” that may cause a greater problem in the future. Take a look and visit their website:www.liebowitzassoc.com. Take advantage of the services they offer!

Summer Sunshine

2007-12-28T02:17:00.000-08:00

My title is actually a song from the CORRS. They are very great girl's band. They are popular and really great performers. Some would say they are not good but for me, they are one of the loveliest. The title I got does not really reflect on the song but of the summer that I used to have. Sunshine becasue its one of the brightest summer I had. I have this wish of a having a guy bestfriend ever since I was a kid. Just last summer, I had one and the most compassionate of all guys I used to know. I love this person in any ways and our story started with a friendly story and unexpectedly, one great love story. Wrong but enchanting, complicated but happy...the best if only we were right. I have to make the summary of it since its a very long story. We started as friends and never guilty bestfriends because at start, we know where we are, what we do and who are we to each other. Until, the guy I had started to create imaginations and we were forced to leave the company of each one. It was really sad that we had to leave each other. That thing, triggered anything. We had this promise: "If ever one starts to fall inlove, never say it. Its best to keep a bestfriend because if we started to go beyond that we might loose both friendship and love." That is exactly what happened later on. He was my bestfriend and we were forced to leave each other. Before leaving each other, one started to confess and for that reason, we really had to leave each other. Later on, the other one had confessed and they promised to leave each other fully. After how many tries, weeks, months...we still cant leave each other. Its really amazing that no matter how hard, we are fighting...but on the wrong side. After 7 months, I did a very bad thing that triggered all his feelings for me. He decided to give up and take away all the love he had for me. I cant move out but he already did. He was happy and until now, i still have this tears hiding in my heart. No one may see it but its really and totally hurting me. Im tired but I cant leave him because it was my fault. I cant stop thinking anything about him and the things that we have done. The history of 10:00 curfew, the mass, the driving, the swing, Link2Suport, the bracelet, hankerchief, red butterfly, white rose, the poem. As in everything. He was the first person to greet me good morning and the last person to bid me good night. Never neglected even one day to do that. He treated me like a princes, he was worried all the time about me, he wakes me up every morning so I wont be late. The smile, the looks in his eyes and all the red carpet when we are in our fairy tale world. How will I be able to forget all these memories? Way back into Love...the song playing when we had a sweet dance. I cant forget every inch of everything that we had. Right now, the sunshine of that summer, all gone, all washed out. It was my fault and I dont even know if it will still come back. I dont know if we still have the 2 years. The person I always think that would just be there at my back when I need him, never here, never near. From the bestfriend I used to know to the person I used to love and now the stranger I have to pass by. Summer sunshine is really over.

Love Will Lead You Back

2007-12-26T05:14:00.000-08:00

Love Will Lead You Back Lyrics

This song is really touching. I don't know if i already have this on my page. Whatever! Well, somebody told me to let him go. That would definitely a bull's eye shot on me and could actually put that dot, dot, dot. Then what will happened next if I'll do? I'll be away soon and I have read a line about him waiting for somebody to come. I'm pretty clueless about him because he is not saying anything. I was even thinking he's okay. I told my mother about it and she told me to follow what that person is saying but I cant. He is telling me everything will be okay but when and how? I wanna trust him but I dont wanna loose him. I just can't! My nanay said: "If its really him for you...we'll never know. It would take time...years. If you'll meet again, let's just see." Its exactly the same thoughts he told me. Then how will things flow?! Its really hurting. I just hope that love will really lead us back. Love may not be here for now but I wish that in God's time, it will be.

Back for days...

2007-12-26T03:46:00.000-08:00

Back here in Davao just today. I've spent my Christmas with my family in Tagum City and I have to go back here for a reason. I need to finish things that bothers me. My thesis! Definitely still a very big thing to finish. I was playing jokes with my father about me not graduating and he was really so mad. So now I have this pressure on me. I really have to grad! Aja! I'll be here for just 3 days and have to go back for our Reunion and spend New year with my fam. This was really my 1st quiet Christmas since my 2 sisters were not home. They were in Bohol to spend the season. They don't have plans to go home for now. It was overwhelming that despite of that, I have my brother back with the headaches he is giving to us(quite) but its okay that he is here. Plus, I'm drank for two consecutive days with my childhood friends spending time together and having fun a lot. Its really a headache. I've been cleaning the house and helping my mother to cook since I cant cook alone because I don't know how to. I just felt that rich people actually cant experience this. Since they have their "nanny" at their house, they cant enjoy the feeling of rearranging the house and the designing of it for Christmas. It was just four of us in the house for now. Really quiet but cool. Lols. I love my family and I'm taking this advantage to share my thoughts since Ill be staying here for just a few days! Have a wonderful season everyone!

Advance Greetings!

2007-12-22T00:45:00.000-08:00

Being online everyday is my life's routine. I can't just sleep without even opening a PC and checking on my online stuffs all day. But This time is really a season. It almost Christmas and I have to go back to my hometown to see my family and spend time with them. It's my four years living in Davao and I would really miss this place when I'm out of here. Christmas vacation is not that long anyway so I'll just be a little invisible for just a few days. Since I cant be online everyday, which is one of my ways on communicating to people, I would like to save this message here and let those who can read to feel the warmth of love and care I can share. I cant be here on that exact day so just pullin' this ADVANCE MERRY CHRISTMAS to all and a HAPPY NEW YEAR! I love you all guys and thank you so much for the year that you've been a part. No matter how sad, how bad, or how happy you've caused my life, it will always matter. If you've never come around, I will never have these learnings, these realizations and the challenges of life. Thank you and God bless you all! Have fun! See you as soon as I can get online!

Succumb

2007-12-22T00:30:00.000-08:00

Feeling so exhausted is really a failure of the day. I was full of headache last night but I feel well today. Very light even drank. Its the very first time I never had a hang over...with the hard. I just give-in to the emotions that was recently bothering me. The life of a person I used t know, now, I believe is totally gone. I am a loser and I submit myself to that. I never had this freedom of feelings. As if Im over. Im into the shadow of hurt, of tiredness, of shame and of fear. This is not me! I never give-up. I never give a damn care of whatever those people are giving me. The person I am knows when and how to ignore those who are indeed needed to be ignored. Who am I right now?! I don't even know myself. I don't know you, him or they. I don't know this or that. I don't know anything and some would think Im great but Im not! Im with my mask. The happy, the cheerful, the smiley, maybe cool, maybe strong but all of that was not me anymore. I never was, I even forgot how to be that person. I feel down for losing. I should be over it. When will I ever be out of my shell? I should act on my age but Im still in this sticky thing holding me and I cant move out. Just leave me alone and I just wanted to understand that my life is not bound to turn on the life of a person, of a certain emotion and feelings and of the shadow of anything. I have to be out and I have to be a soldier. I have to fight against it and I have to live a new life...with or without you! With or without anything to have!

Wurla Morning!

2007-12-20T19:46:00.000-08:00

Today is our last day of exam with this last subject PolScie. Too bad I was not ready to take the exam because I just watched movie last night. Not just one but two of it! Very bad! I was really sleepy when I decided to go to sleep and unfortunately, i dont have this open eyes to study. I have to sleep by 12 to wake up early for an early mass. After mass in the morning, I started studying my subject but I fell asleep...again. I was still laughing when I woke up by 8 and started to get alarmed when Im still in Chapter 2 out of 5 chapters and its already 8:45am. I then took a bath and studied again by 9:30. I was really in a hurry. im really shaking becasue i'm really hungry plus sleepy at the same time. So i went to school with this never ready heart and mind and soul. I'm out of the house 5min before 10 and needed to ride the taxi because certainly i will be late if I wont. The exam was alrady starting when I arrived and I was 10min late. Im still shaking and I cant think well. I was not that ready and its really "wurla" to answer those questions. Its really vague. I dont have any idea about some of it. After exam we have to run for the printing of the IRM requirements. We ran out of the school and back again to pass it. After all of that, I'm now here and blogging. Wurla day! I think I need some food to calm down! Have a yummy lunch everyone!

Last Line

2007-12-19T23:06:00.000-08:00

I forgot to blog this thoughts I have last day. I really have a lot that's why I fail to remember everything. Well, it's all about the last line of the homily i heard from the last day's Novena Mass. I was actually late so I just tried to open my ears to get a bit of understanding about the words of God. The last line I got is "In the end...God heals". So what is really the significance of this in my life right now?! So you see that life is never perfect. We are never perfect. I remember the sins that I've done, big or small. There were people who finds it too hard to forgive me or forget their madness on me. People wants me to go away from them to move on and leave that most enchanting emotions we have. Well, I cant even blame. I'm losing hope but as usual...nothing can ever change. Just having that line in my heart, I know, everything will be healed. People will be healed and as what they say, everything will be okay. Not worry too much and don't think of the problem anymore. People and I, everything about us, will be alright!

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2007-12-19T06:45:00.000-08:00

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Forest plus City

2007-12-19T06:09:00.000-08:00

I was really hungry when we arrived at "Banoks"(eating place). From exam, which ended by 7, me and my group mates went to an Internet Cafe to integrate the documents we made in our houses. I was really starving when we decided to eat. After eating, we decided to enter a newly-opened park just in front of that place where we eat. When we were inside, we were really amaze on what we have seen. Its a combination of green things and liberated mood. A lot of bench, statue, lights were all around and the place was really clean. There was a part which actually looks like Baguio because of the trees. It was the "People's Park" in Davao City. It was really cool in the eyes. A lot of lovers we've seen and it was never awkward to look at them because the place was just right. The ambiance and everything...wow! We took a turn and the last stop, hopefully, was the playground. I was delightful to see the swing but like MTS, the swing are just for kids. Which would actually mean that I cant play it. Its never delightful at all for me but for the kids, they were really enjoying! Anybody can have a lot of fun in their. Just don't forget to bring your camera. I just had one picture on my phone and it was not as good as the pictures taken from a real cam since it was already dark. We just went home because suddenly I remember that I still have to study. There's still a lot to be read. So we were walking home with amazement. The place was really great. It makes me remember someone, I can do my emo moments their.lols.

Aches

2007-12-19T05:34:00.000-08:00

Im not really feeling well today. Its really alarming that I'm not hot outside but inside, I feel cold. Which actually means that sickness is still inside my body. I'm really anxious about it because its our exam week plus...thesis checking! I'm afraid I cant get up tomorrow. Hope not! I think it actually started with my toothache just last Monday and now I don't feel good at all. Plus here is a friend Jan who hold my hand so tight like i feel i got my bruises for that. I cant move my left hand freely. Like I was typing really slow right now. Oh! Everything is really aching including my... you know that thing that beats? Well, forget it! It will be okay! Hope soon. Its almost Christmas and i want to be happy. I just wish I can always fake a smile. No! Fake a hatred and pain. Well, still two days to go! I mean three days since our thesis checking will be this Saturday. Just wishin good luck to everyone! Aja!

Just 15 minutes...

2007-12-16T18:07:00.000-08:00

It’s already 10:15 on my watch. It’s the Philippine time anyway. After 15 minutes, our Political Science Class will be starting. Just want to write this early for a reason...disappointment. I was really disappointed because I did not wake up early this morning. Too bad I miss the Novena Mass today. Now, I just miss one. I really want to cry. Like it’s very important to me right now. My eyes started to open 6:12 am and the mass is certainly over. I get up from my bad with this very bad mood. Well, I guess I don’t have to ruin my whole day. So I texted my mother to tell her my grief. She told me to pray the rosary and say sorry to the Virgin Mary for not waking up early. Well at least that's from my mother and kind of relieve me. But still, it’s different! It should be 9 days of Novena Mass but I lose one chance already. So I guess I will be needing three alarms to wake me up tomorrow morning. I can’t just depend on my friend to wake me up. I’m somehow mad that she didn’t wake me up. Her reason? She is not feeling well. But she woke up the time before the mass. How I wish she just woke me up although she don’t want to go. Well, forget it! It just happened. Anyway, I still have 10 minutes to review what I've studied a while ago. It’s just really enchanting that my nocturnal side isn't affecting me today. See, I have just thought and write this morning. Lols. Have a nice day guys and good luck to my quiz!

Songs that Counts....

2007-12-16T02:59:00.000-08:00

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus Lyrics

I heard this first song from a friendster account of a friend. I really like its "EMO" tone. Since I'm practicing that currently, I easily fell in love with the song. I decided to put it in here but when i saw this song in my ex' b's blog, i was a hesitant of posting it. I saw this lyrics moving and I find it cool so i decided to put it anyway. Its an old style of putting lyrics. Like a lot of my friends were already using this style in their friendster account. The important thing is, its already on my page. I love the meaning. Its about sacrificing out of love. Proving that because of love, he can do everything.

Mariah Carey Lyrics
Always Be My Baby Lyrics

This second song is actually a part of my playlist and heard it playing on my ex' b's younger sister's friendster account again. I love her shoutout! "You'll always be my baby"...that is! Baby reminds me of a person who used to be there and suddenly has to leave me for a reason to move on. Well I put this one on my playlist because its more about leaving. It speaks more about the faith into the love they used to have. And because of that love, the one who leaves will be back. Perfect! That's how I am right now but the coming back is not sure to come true yet although faith of love is always there.

Hopin for you to appreciate both songs!

Memories by HEART

2007-12-16T01:26:00.001-08:00

I'm gonna make this one simple. I just realize that we could really have a lot of memories. Some of it we might forget. A lot of us make our own writings in the diary. Like blogging or in a real diary book. Why do we do that?! First reason is to remember the things that happen or the things that are still going to happen like schedules we put into our organizer or calendar. Sometimes we don't want to forget important dates, meetings or something terrible and extraordinary settings. I cant see the essence. Maybe for meetings or business matters, this could be important but on the other hand, this could be pretentious.
Its more likely to know when a person whom you valued most just appreciate the dates like anniversaries and birthdays. Isn't it romantic when one could have all the memories of the past without reading or writing it to it's diary?! This is what I meant about memories by heart. If you really feel it, you can instantly remember everything. Love makes everything fresh. You may not always think about it your whole life but just by knowing the current date or by seeing things, there is it! Reminders just pop-out from your mind. Without minding it, you already have the memories from your heart.

Nocturnal

2007-12-16T00:47:00.000-08:00

I'm better-off working at night and slumber the whole morning. You might be thinking I'm a banshee! Lol! By no means! I just love the hours of darkness. I love the stars around and the breeze of the air instead of the heat of the sun. I can’t ponder when I do the documentation early morning. I can’t even sleep at night. Yeah! I know this isn't normal. I'm actually thinking I'm ill. If you’re anxious, you don't have to. I have these plans of seeing the physician soon. Well the terrible thing of me being of the night is the upshot when morning comes. I have this very weighty body. I think I can’t stride. My hands were trembling and my stomach is really throbbing. I can’t even perceive sound at times and I feel like everything is so dim and suspended. I don't want to think I’m sick. I just feel weak but I can still budge. I can still think but I have to stare at stuffs first before I totally move out from bed. Sleeping for just a short period of time makes me feel like riding an octopus. Once you go down, you have to scrutinize first and take a balance. If you weren't into this situation guys, not yet nocturnal, never get yourself into this world! Always think about your health. I’m trying to defeat this practice. Still not easy but fighting. After all, I have a lot of reasons to live and dreams I’m still hunting to fulfill.

Sunday of Joy...Sunday of Rejoice!

2007-12-15T22:39:00.000-08:00

I was really glad that i never failed to woke up early this morning. Its really so overwhelming to be there...attending the first day of the traditional Novena Mass. I woke up an hour earlier than the scheduled time. My friend and I were together joining the mass at ATENEO de DAVAO UNIVERSITY. It started at 5am. Not like others which usually starts at 4am. I feel great and not sleepy. I can still remember when i was young, i go with my family really sleepy. I just slept while the mass is going on. Lol. Well, i just had the faith and patience topic from the Jesuit Fathers of Ateneo. I estimated the time of his homily and I think, it was more than 30min of speech. Really worth it for everything that he said. The best part I cant forget is the Psalm which was actually sang by a guy. He's a part of the chorale i think. The psalm goes this way:

"Naway Kahabagan
Tayo ng Diyos
at pagpalain
kailan man."

The song made my body's hairs stand. I was not frightened but overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with the voice and the feeling of lightness. I even had a teary eye. I felt that God never gave up on me. So many chances he had given and still, he is willing to forgive. Another thing i realized was the greatness of the morning. Ive been nocturnal these past few months. After the mass, I never slept again. Instead, I took a bath and went out of the house to blog. But i cant write. As usual, I cant think when its still early. Hahahah! Im trying to forget something. Realizing that I can do a lot of things when i start things early, inspires me to start and get things done as early as possible. Thanks for an early and good start with the LORD!

A Reason to Chose...

2007-12-14T11:15:00.000-08:00

Here i go again! The last time i wrote was a lil irrelevant to how am i ryt now. These past few weeks, I was playing with these set of emotions and then realizations begun to freshen up. It started with a wrong thing, followed with a wrong love and next is the pain. It has a bit of misunderstanding on the way it has to be done and with that implication things brought to him! I just remember that the pain we both are having right now started from a decision i made. I felt sorry for a month but realizing the real reason why i have to make such decision is all because of luv, it gives me a lil strength. I was mad at myself for bringing the pain but at least right now, i already have the reason to be strong. Maybe not to overcome but at least have at least a reason to move on. Its really very hard to understand, to let go and to move on...yes i know but we have to! I have to! Just every time he pushes me away from him makes me think im not selfish at all. Ive used that wrong thing to make a pain, to show my love, and to make him stop from suffering any longer. The path started when i did a mistake, decided to use it for someone i love, used that to make somebody stop loving me, and the only decision i can make to stop him suffer just because of me. If ill say go, he wont go. He will but he will still stay for two years. He’ll wait while im playing around not knowing if i will still come back to him. The choice was: first, to stay, keep the sin and let him suffer for years? second, to reveal, let him suffer and finally trigger him not to love me anymore. At least, we both suffer or nevertheless, i will suffer. A decision that blows up everything. The only thing in my mind is..."Its my fault i know. I made a sin. Its a choice to tell you or not. Sooner or later you'll know. But i decided to say it for one good reason. I love you and I would be very selfish to let you wait for me while i will be laughing with the other. It really hurts me and you, i know your also in pain. I want this and i dont have any idea this could be any painful to me. Im sorry... though you can’t see it, you may not believe, that even to the last decision i made, I made it for you."

"One More Chance"

2007-11-29T05:16:00.000-08:00

Yes I know! This sounds really familiar to all of you guys! Take note...its still showing on the theaters. Well, for those who are not familiar about this movie, its a movie where Bea Alonzo and John Lloyd Cruz are the main characters. Another great thing is Maja Salvador and Derek Ramsey are also part of the movie. Really good looking people.

When I first heard something about how good this movie was, I really made a plan to write something about the movie. I can get facts from the internet but its really different when you witnessed the movie by yourself. So I decided to watch the movie with a special friend.
When I was in the movie house, I was really praying that the amount I paid will be worth for the movie I chose to watch. I can still remember when I watched the movie whose main characters are Mark Herras and Jennelyn Mercado(oops, spelling...). I really regret for watching that movie...I forgot the title. Since then, I promised not to watch any Tagalog movies anymore. This movie was really different. When I saw the trailer of the movie, it just drags me on wanting to see more of it. Thinking that it was form Star Cinema with the director, Cathy Garcia-Molina, I felt that this movie could have something worth to watch for. And so we watched...

I was trying to relate myself but unfortunately, it was vague for me. The movie was not meant to match the story of my present love life. Well, that's okay but I really found some interesting lines I could really relate to. One is "Mahal na mahal kita at ang sakit-sakit na!" with the matching tears and walking out of the door. Huhuuh...it was really touching. "She love me at my worst, you had me at my best...but you chose to break my heart." I was really silently crying in the movie house.You may find it silly specially when you talk about Tagalog movies but for me, its really worth paying for and now Im back believing that there could still be another very good Tagalog movies...simply well made and produce by Star Cinema. As how they define the story was all about..."journey of two lovers who has to lose something in order to find themselves". So to those who have been together for quite some time, you should always know how to know yourself. Always make sure that you can still live even without him/her. There was also a very important line that I can still remember saying "kaya nawawala yung taong mahal natin kasi baka ung taong magmamahal sa atin di pa dumarating. Hayaan mo, makikita mo din yung taong mamahalin ka at aalagaan mo." The last words are not really the way it was...just something like that. It was the words of Popoy's friend when Basha left Popoy. This might happen to you guys. Maybe the person you have right now with you is not really the person for you. If somebody leaves you and never comes back to you, then maybe he/she is not meant to be staying with you forever. On the other hand, if he/she comes back, then maybe you are just meant to lose each other for a while and be back with the better you. The person who can face the real love for the real person. If that happens, maybe you are meant to be forever.

These are just some of the lines on the trailer. Would you agree on that first line? What would be your answer on the other line?

The first line for me, it was right and it could be helpful. You could be much better as you grow. You could be more matured as you come back. My answer to the "How long", I still don't know...as long as I can feel it, I will still hold on even if I'm the only one still holding on.